Why I Love Snow


I’m sitting here on my comfy chair as I watch my awesome neighbor, aka my dad, snow blowing my driveway open. Within the past 2 days we received about 28 inches of snow.   Social media is blowing up with photos of the snow and a lot of unhappy people who are expressing their intense hate of the snow and how they can’t wait for Spring and Summer.

I sit here still loving the snow. I will say – I’m not a plow truck driver who has to be out clearing the roads, or someone in the medical field having to find a way to work no matter the conditions, or a truck driver who is stuck on a highway somewhere for hours at a time – so I realize that if that was the case my perspective would be very different I’m sure.

As I’ve been stuck at home I’ve taken some time to think about what it is that I love about the snow.   Humor me in taking a few moments to recognize some things we should appreciate about snow, and especially about big snow storms like this one. Let me share with you why I love snow.

I love how even in the middle of the night when it’s usually dark out, it’s still bright because of the reflection of the moon and stars off of the snow. It reminds me of how we should be as believers and followers of Christ – that even when the world is so dark, our lives should reflect the light of Christ so that it lights up the dark world.

Snow is so white, so pure, so clean – we joked at work that it’s like little fluffy angels raining down from the sky. If you sit and watch it fall it’s so peaceful and calming – it creates stillness and quiet in a world that is so loud and active.   And it reminds me of the verse in Isaiah 1:18 ““Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.” Snow provides a pure and clean covering over everything – just like Jesus’s shed blood does for us – it makes us whiter than snow. I heard a story once of a little girl who was adopted by a family in the US, in a state where they get snow. She had never seen snow before and so the first time she saw it she said “I get it, I get it now”.   She was referring to the verse, she never had a way to make sense of that verse as she had never seen snow – but now, after seeing how incredibly white and pure it was she could finally understand how pure and clean God makes us.

One of my favorite things about big snow storms like this is that it forces us to stop. Yes, I realize we have to go out and shovel. But we can’t go anywhere – literally this weekend here in PA we couldn’t get to our cars, some people couldn’t even open the doors to their homes because of the snow.   It forces us to stop, to slow down, to change the pace of our lives and to enjoy the moment (if we choose to enjoy it). Our lives and this world are so busy, we are always thinking of the next thing that needs to be done, we are so task oriented. Well, that pace doesn’t work in a storm like this as the two can’t go together.   Sadly, I sometimes need a major snow storm to change my pace and realize how often I let life just pass by without enjoying the moment and taking it in. I’ve loved being able to sit and watch a movie, talk to friends on the phone for hours at a time because no one had anything they had to do or anywhere they had to be.   A good friend of mine texted me yesterday and she said “I need to live life more often at this pace”. Amen sister, thanks Amy for helping me to see that as well. Why does it take a snow storm for me to slow down and live life at the pace that I think God really intends for us to live?   We miss so much because we are moving through life at a pace that we shouldn’t be living.

I love storms like this because of the way it brings the community together.   All the neighbors are out shoveling and snow blowing so it fosters opportunities to say hi and strike up conversation. It also provides opportunities to help each other out and work together as a team. I’m grateful that I live next door to my parents and so I benefit from my dad’s snow blower. Last evening as he was snow blowing, the rest of our family was out shoveling and helping the neighbors shovel – we’re all in this together.   This morning I woke up to the sound of a State plow truck stuck at the intersection outside of my house.   I quickly bundled up, grabbed my shovel, and headed outside to help.   Our two shovels didn’t even begin to fix the issue but it provided an opportunity for me to touch the life of someone who needed a little bit of encouragement after many long hours working on the roads.   We then called my cousin up the street who lives on a farm and within minutes he joined us with a tractor to help pull the plow out.   These are the things that I love about big storms – how everyone comes together, whether you know each other or not. What an awesome picture of how the body of Christ is meant to function all the time – not just in times of need and crisis.

I love how it brings families together.   Again, our pace of life is so fast and so full that we don’t spend a lot of time just hanging out with our families.   When we’re stuck inside we’ve got nothing else to do but hang out together – whether it’s eating a meal together, watching a movie together, or playing a game together – the important piece is that we’re doing it together….even shoveling together. In our culture many families don’t have much together time – so I love that snow storms force us to have family time spent together making memories.

For those of you reading this who hate snow, I hope that my thoughts were able to provide at least a small piece of perspective so that the next time we get snow you can at least smile once while you watch the fluffy white angels fall from the sky.



The Boy and His Trumpet


A few weeks ago at church we had our Children’s Praise Service during the time that we typically have Sunday School. This is a time when the children share with us in music, Scripture, poems, etc.   I’ll be honest, I wasn’t too thrilled about going, I would have rather been in the Sunday School class that I attend. But ya know, God so often uses things in our life to speak to us when we least expect it.   He did that for me during the Children’s Praise Service.

There was this one little boy who had a trumpet solo. He was probably about 8 years old I’m going to guess. He couldn’t have been playing the trumpet for very many years but he was willing to give this a try and get up in front of all these people to play a song for us. He got off to a rough start, the sound just wouldn’t come out of the instrument. He kept trying and even took the trumpet away from his mouth a time or two in order to gather his thoughts, and courage, and try again. After a few tries he got it and started into the song. Throughout the song he struggled a couple times, notes didn’t come out correctly, the sound was off tune, and he repeated a few sections hoping to get it right the second time. But he made it through the whole song and everyone clapped for him at the end.

I found myself smiling as he played, and as he struggled. I found myself internally cheering him on – ‘You got it, keep trying, don’t give up now, you’re doing great!’. And this got me thinking. Why was I smiling and thinking he was doing great? Was he really doing great? Would I see him on the big stage anytime soon? No.   Is he traveling around making lots of money with his trumpet skills? Nope.   Do the higher ups in Nashville know his name and are they lining up to offer him a record deal? Once again, no.

What made me smile is that he wasn’t giving up. He was young, just learning, still trying to figure this all out. We’ve all been there and I could relate. It reminded me of when I began playing the flute – I know it didn’t sound well but thanks to my parents and many other people who sat in a similar crowd cheering me on I was able to continue in the learning process and eventually come to a point when it did sound good. I also had to think of his parents who I’m sure were sitting there just beaming, also cheering him on, and oh so proud of him for trying, for doing his best, and for not allowing the bumps to stop him.

My thoughts also went to the amazing picture this is of how God views us. We are just like that little boy. We don’t have this thing called life figured out. Nor do we have figured out what it truly means to live life in full surrender to Christ. We’re trying, we’re getting better at it every day, we’re learning and growing in this area but we haven’t yet mastered it – we may never master it this side of heaven. But I have to believe that as we try, as we struggle, as we have the courage to not give up God is looking down on us smiling, so proud of His children, and He’s cheering us on. He’s saying to us “You’ve got it, great job, keep trying, don’t give up.” I think He’s also saying “She’s mine, see that one, yea the little girl who isn’t quite in tune and is messing up a little, that one – that’s my daughter, and I’m her daddy!”

May I encourage you today to not be too hard on yourself. You’re going to mess up, you won’t get it right every time. But don’t stop learning, don’t stop growing, and don’t lose your courage to get on that stage (aka – the world around you) and use the talents God has given you to put a smile on someone’s face, to change their perspective, and to shine the light of Christ into their life. Your Daddy is cheering you on!



I’m back! I want to apologize for my long absence of being MIA. My intention was to be more consistent with my posts and instead I’ve been anything but consistent. I don’t have a good excuse for my lack of posts other than that I’ve been a bit overwhelmed lately. Can any of you relate? You know the feeling, there’s way too much to do and not near enough time. There are things in your life that are out of control and chaotic – not what you expected or hoped for you. The dictionary defines overwhelmed as: “to overcome completely in mind or feeling; to overpower or overcome especially with superior forces; destroy; crush; to load, heap, treat, or address with an overpowering or excessive amount of anything.”

Sound familiar? The feeling of being crushed? An excessive amount of things that need done or people who need something from you? Being pressed on every side? If you aren’t there now, you’ve been there and you know what it feels like. It isn’t a good feeling at all. It can even cause other harmful things: anxiety, stress, burn out, frustration, loss of patience, health problems, etc. No one likes being overwhelmed or feeling overwhelmed.

I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately, actually I’ve been overwhelmed for the last few months (which is why you haven’t seen any posts from me). I’ve been overwhelmed due to good things but overwhelmed nonetheless. I serve with a women’s ministry (check us out online: www.livewellministries.org) and I love it – I love where God has me and I’m so grateful and humbled to be serving Him in this way. But there is A LOT to do and it never seems that there’s enough time or brain power to do it. On top of it – there come the trials and oppression that arises as the enemy tries to thwart the amazing plans God is working out for His glory.

This week has felt a bit overwhelming. There’s much to do on my list but there are my fellow sisters in Christ, my fellow leaders in ministry who are experiencing some pretty intense oppression as they prepare to open a new Retreat site in the ministry (and the enemy is at work, trying to discourage them so that God’s glory isn’t revealed).

This morning I was driving to work, feeling tired, overwhelmed, and ready for a break for the pressing in that is all around me and all around the ministry right now. As I drove a song came on the radio which I love and I’ve heard many, many times. But….today it hit me in a different way. I was singing along with the song but couldn’t sing very long as the tears began to stream down my face. The song was ‘Overwhelmed’ by Big Daddy Weave. I’ve included the lyrics belong and strongly encourage you to take a few minutes to listen to the song and let the lyrics truly sink into your heart and mind

This morning as I drove I again was overwhelmed, but this time it wasn’t a suffocating, anxiety ridden sense of being overwhelmed. This time it was an overwhelming feeling of being in awe of my Savior, the God of the Universe.

It was amazing how quickly my long to-do-list faded away in my mind, the oppression being experienced was nothing more than one more ‘simple’ battle for my Lord to be victorious over, the weariness of my journey as a Princess Warrior had lifted, and the tears washed my eyes to clearly see the overwhelming reality of my God, my Lord and Savior!

Today, if you are feeling overwhelmed, I encourage you to swap out the heavy overwhelming feeling you are experiencing with the light, free, and refreshing overwhelming feeling of our God!

Overwhelmed by Big Daddy Weave

I see the work of Your Hands
Galaxies spin in a Heavenly dance oh God
All that You are is so overwhelming

I hear the sound of Your Voice
All at once it’s a gentle and thundering noise oh God
All that You are is so overwhelming

I delight myself in You
Captivated by Your beauty
I’m overwhelmed, I’m overwhelmed by You

God, I run into Your arms
Unashamed because of mercy
I’m overwhelmed, I’m overwhelmed by You

I know the power of Your Cross
Forgiven and free forever You’ll be my God

All that You’ve done is so overwhelming
I delight myself in You
In the Glory of Your Presence
I’m overwhelmed, I’m overwhelmed by You

God, I run into Your arms
Unashamed because of mercy
I’m overwhelmed, I’m overwhelmed by You

You are Beautiful, You are Beautiful
Oh God, there is no one more Beautiful
You are Beautiful, God you are the most Beautiful

You are Wonderful, You are Wonderful
Oh God, there is no one more Wonderful
You are Wonderful, God You are the most Wonderful

You are Glorious, You are Glorious
Oh God, there is no one more Glorious
You are Glorious, God you are the most Glorious

Attitude of Ingratitude?



Gratitude….do you have an attitude of gratitude?  Or are you secreting an attitude of ingratitude?   This is something that has been a question raised in my mind and heart recently.  Maybe it’s because I’m reading the book “One Thousand Gifts” by Ann Voskamp (which I highly recommend).  The book reminds us to be grateful and thankful for all things…big, small, good, bad, painful, joyful.   I’ve come to the realization lately that we do an awful job of having an attitude of gratitude. Many of us (you can assess yourself on this) have an attitude of ingratitude.  You may want to argue with me on that saying that you feel we’re a pretty grateful bunch of people, recognizing what all we have….but let me throw a few things out to you that I’ve observed recently, which I’m sure you can relate to:

  • Someone complaining because of the weather…it’s too cold, it’s too hot, it’s too rainy, it’s too dry, there’s too much snow, there’s not enough snow…..
  • An employed person complaining about their job….they don’t agree with the way the company is run, they don’t like what they do, they don’t like their coworkers, their hours aren’t convenient, it’s too much work, it’s not enough work, it doesn’t align with their passions…..
  • A person complaining about their town/city…it’s falling apart, the people aren’t nice, the area doesn’t provide enough entertainment, the traffic is bad, the politicians are lousy, the members of the community are a pain…..
  • Someone complaining about the food they have….they don’t like it, it’s not what they are really hungry for, they’d rather eat something else, they don’t like the way it was prepared….

These are just a few examples of ingratitude that we experience, and most likely participate in, on a regular basis.  Let me be blunt….Who do we think we are?  Who do I think I am?  Who do you think you are?  Who do we think we are to deserve anything more or better than what we already have?   Actually let’s go a bit farther with that – do we realize that we don’t DESERVE any of what we’ve been given?  Since when do we think we have the right to deserve these things?  What makes us worthy of deserving them?

EVERYTHING we’ve been given are gifts from our Father in Heaven – none of which we deserve.  He gives them to us out of His mercy and grace – because He LOVES us, not because we’ve done anything to deserve them.  Matthew 7:11 tells us that the Father gives us good gifts.   All that we are given is God’s – none of it is ours (1 Chronicles 29:14) but for some reason we take ownership and think that God owes us something.

Do you remember Job?  Yea – the guy who lost EVERYTHING….house, vocation, family, health….everything was gone aside from his very life.  He questioned God, asking God why He allowed all these things even though Job was faithful to God.  Makes sense….who of us wouldn’t and don’t question God when things are going right (when we’re in an attitude of ingratitude)?  Do you know what God says?  Check out Job 38-41 for God’s full response to Job.

I like Job 38:4-5 as God says to Job: “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding.  Who determined its measurements – surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it?”

Ok, Princess Warrior, what does Job questioning God have to do with my lack of gratitude?  Great question….when we aren’t grateful – when we complain, when we are negative aren’t we really questioning God and His Sovereignty?  Ouch…I know…that one hurts – I’m preaching to the choir on this one.

What does God say about being grateful and having an attitude of gratitude?  He has a lot to say about it but let’s look at a few verses directly referencing gratitude and thanksgiving:

“Let there be no filthiness nor foolish talk nor crude joking, which are out of place, but instead let there be thanksgiving.”  Ephesians 5:4

“…in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” Philippians 4:6

“Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving.” Colossians 4:2

Those are just a few examples from Scripture of when we are to be filled with gratitude.  If you didn’t catch on it’s pretty much all the time.  We are to be grateful in everything…that’s a lot of things and situations!  Did you catch what else that means?  We need to be grateful and filled with gratitude even in the bad and painful places of life.  Remember – we are not worthy or deserving of receiving anything from God, nothing….well, let me correct myself…we are worthy and deserving of one thing…eternity in hell.  But by His grace, mercy, and love He’s offered to us the gift of eternal life.

So let’s think about this…seriously think this through.  We deserve eternity in hell and we sit here day in and day out and complain about petty, ridiculous things.  We complain and gripe because we had a rough day at work, or we don’t like what was made for dinner, or how about because we have to pay a bill.  Really??   Let’s stop focusing on ourselves and see the big picture – and let’s be filled with an attitude of gratitude.

Let me put something else in perspective on a non-eternal scale.  We may possibly be some of the most spoiled and well-off people in the world…actually, not possibly, I’m pretty sure we are.  Look at the things we complain about or have an attitude of ingratitude toward:

  • Our job……do you know how many people in this world only dream of making enough money to provide for their family?
  • Our food….think about all the people who live from one meal to the next, literally hoping and praying that God provides their next meal (and using the word meal doesn’t justify what they eating – it isn’t a meal in our definition of a meal)
  • The weather…let’s be grateful that we have a roof over our head, a car to travel in during bad weather, a house with heat and air conditioning or fans, a place to stay dry when it’s wet out
  • Our bills….be grateful – having an electricity bill means that when it’s dark you can still see inside your house and that when you want to do laundry you can have a machine in your home do it for you….do you know what a luxury that is?

One last thing to help put this in perspective.  I recently saw a video of a woman in a third world country, Kenya I believe.  She was being given a solar powered light (like the one in the picture below), which has a cost of $50 to you and I.  This woman lives in a hut with no light other than the sun.  So as soon as the sun goes down she and her family live in the dark.  The video brought tears to my eyes.  This woman was jumping up and down, screaming and cheering, she couldn’t stop screaming she was so excited…over a lamp.

solar powered lamp

Which attitude do you have?  One of gratitude or one of ingratitude?   Let’s start counting the gifts God has given us – each one…no matter how big, how small, how good, or how painful….we are called to be grateful for it all!

Have You Been to the Dentist Lately?



What’s your answer to that question?   Mine is: ‘yes’.  I was just there two weeks ago, yesterday and I have another appointment scheduled next week.  In case you’re wondering…no I don’t like going to the dentist – honestly it’s one of the things in life I like the least.   I always dread it and can’t wait for it to be over.   Interestingly, God used this situation that I strongly dislike to speak some very clear truth into my life – another parallel, He just loves speaking to me in parallels.

Two weeks ago I’m sitting in the dentist chair having my teeth cleaned which I don’t mind too much now that I get the ‘baking soda sand blast’, as I call it instead, of the nasty flavored, gritty, gross toothpaste they used to use to clean my teeth.  They of course wanted to do x-rays and they pick and pry to see if there is any decay able to be found.  Wouldn’t ya know it…they found 2 areas of decay?!  This isn’t uncommon for me, I’ve had ‘soft’ teeth every since I was a young child and have had many cavities filled.

As the dentist told me that I have to come back to have those areas taken care of God plopped this parallel into my head and my heart.  Lately God has really had me walking a journey of cleaning up areas of my life and my heart, revealing areas in me that need changed and transformed.  This is what the dentist does – he cleans our teeth and in the cleaning process locates any areas that we’ve failed to take care of which in turn has allowed decay and need his attention.

When the hygienist cleans my teeth she’s getting off all the goop and grime that has built up over the months since I last had her clean my teeth.  This is exactly what God wants us to allow Him to do as Psalm 51:7 says – to clean up all the goop and grime that builds up in our lives.  He wants to take it away, scrape it off so that we can shine brighter, be whiter, and be more like Him.

Once the teeth are clean the dentist then comes in to look over the x-rays and examine the teeth, looking for decay or any other concerns.   It’s important that he looks closely and thoroughly.  If he misses something that will allow the area of decay to get even worse this will make it harder and more painful to correct later.   The same is true with our Jesus – He wants us to allow Him to look into the areas of our live and point out the decay, or the sin (Psalm 139:23-24).  The areas that we’ve allowed the goop and grime to turn into a bigger issue – an issue that is destroying areas of our life.

And what did the dentist do yesterday when I went in to have my first area of decay taken care of?   Well, let’s just say it isn’t a pleasant visit when it’s time to have the decay repaired but it’s necessary.  He first starts by jabbing me with a needle – twice.  OUCH!  But the needle is also important, it prevents me from feeling the more intense pain of the drilling and filling process.  The small pain is worth it as it covers up the larger pain.

When God locates an area of decay in our lives and we allow Him to be the dentist and remove it – drill it out – it does hurt, but the small pain of surrender and obedience to Him in that situation will prevent a lot of more intense pain down the road.   Yes, it’s painful and uncomfortable, but it’s so very worth it and necessary if we want to live a life that exemplifies our Savior.

Once the dentist drills the decay out he isn’t done – there’s a very important step that follows – he fills it with something pure, healthy, sanitary, and protective (1 John 1:9).  This is exactly what God does – He replaces that area of sin with more of Himself – pure, spiritually healthy, and full of life instead of death.

If we choose to not go to our spiritual dentist, God, then those areas of decay will destroy our lives – just like physical decay destroys the teeth.  And it leaves us useless in serving Him – just like someone without teeth can’t chew or talk properly because they’ve allowed the decay to destroy the needed tools for those tasks.

God wants us to come to His dental office, sit in His chair, allow Him to clean our teeth, allow Him to take x-rays to see into the deepest parts of our lives, locate any decay that may be present, and then purify that area of decay.

So when was the last time you visited your Dentist?



Pulling Teeth

pulling teeth

Think back to when you were a child.  Do you remember when you started to lose your baby teeth?  How did you handle that?  Some kids just pull them out, maybe even before they are really ready to be pulled out, I guess they are just so excited to get their adult teeth in and get rid of those baby teeth.  Others, like me, hated pulling a baby tooth.  And when I say hated, I mean hated!  I so vividly remember a time when one of my baby teeth was extremely loose.  My brother and I shared a room at the time and for some reason we thought it was cool to race from our room to the bathroom.  Well, one evening before bed that’s exactly what we did and as we rounded the corner to go out the door his elbow brushed against my cheek.  That baby tooth….it fell out…he had hardly even touched it…that’s how very loose it was.

I didn’t care how loose the tooth was I did not want to pull it out – I was afraid it would hurt and I don’t like pain.  I would eat on the other side of my mouth and was careful how I talked so that I didn’t have to deal with the pain caused when my very loose tooth was being pushed around in my mouth.  I did this instead of just pulling it out and getting rid of the issue, allowing the mature adult tooth to come in and take its place.  And let’s not forget what else happened when a finally would allow a tooth to fall out (as I don’t know if I ever actually pulled one out) the tooth fairy would show up (aka: mom) and I’d earn a little bit of money for the piggy bank J
I have a confession to make – I still have some baby teeth and I even own a tooth fairy pillow.  These baby teeth aren’t in my mouth though and the tooth fairy pillow doesn’t go with me to bed at night hoping for a quarter to show up in the morning.  These teeth are the things in my life which have been good – they’ve served a much needed and appreciated purpose.  But….they are baby teeth and so there comes a time when they must come out so that bigger, mature, adult teeth can come in to fill the space that was left.  Over the past year or so I’ve been finding myself losing a lot of baby teeth and one thing hasn’t changed – I still don’t like it at all and I, at times, find myself letting the tooth get so loose that I’m chewing on one side of my mouth in order to prevent the tooth from falling out.

This process has gone hand in hand with a leadership course I’m taking and the accountability group which goes along with the course.  These women have been an amazing blessing in my life and have guided me and supported me through numerous baby tooth pullings (excuse the incorrect English) over the past few months.

I don’t know if you are at all like me but I find myself with a mouth full of teeth – too many teeth.  This has been a great parallel for me because as a child I had too many teeth in my small mouth.  I actually had two of my adult teeth removed in order to allow room for my other teeth to fit properly in my mouth.  It’s the same concept with these ‘life’ teeth.  At times our lives get too full of teeth.  The teeth typically aren’t bad and they are usually things we love and enjoy just like our actual baby teeth aren’t bad, they serve a purpose but that purpose is for a short time until the adult teeth arrive.

I’ve found many of the baby teeth in my life to be specific ministry involvement.  Each time God revealed and made clear that it was a baby tooth it was very hard for me to pull the tooth.  There were times I found myself letting it get loose until it was almost knocked out of my mouth by someone else.  Once the tooth was pulled I always felt at peace and almost a sense of relief and excitement as I knew it meant a mature, adult tooth would soon be coming in to fill the space.

That has happened time and time again.  I remember one of the first life baby tooth that I pulled….that one was painful and oh so hard.  It required a friend to bluntly ask me some really tough questions and finally resulted in me pulling the baby tooth.  But within a few weeks God opened a door of ministry that I never could have expected. Had the baby tooth not been removed the new, mature, adult tooth wouldn’t have had room to enter the space.

Just like when I was a child, I’ve found that I still often look to others to help me pull these life baby teeth out as on my own I just let them get loose and try to ignore the fact that they are loose.  Just last night I had a baby tooth pulled – it was hard, but it’s good as I know it’s what God needs me to do and I know He has something incredible in store for the space that is now open in my ‘mouth’.

The baby teeth in life aren’t pointless – they have much purpose and value in our lives.  They often are training ground and stepping stones for what God has in store for us in the future.  He uses those baby teeth to get us ready and make room and grow us into the adult tooth area that He has in store for us.

And the tooth fairy pillow that I have, it was a gift (see picture below), from one of the women who has helped to pull out my life baby teeth.  I don’t put actual teeth in it (it has a pocket to hold the tooth) but I do put slips of paper with the life baby teeth written on them.  It’s served as a great reminder to be aware of any baby teeth God may be asking me to pull and of the benefits and rewards that come with pulling the baby teeth.

tooth fairy pillow

What baby teeth are in your life that you’re holding on to and allowing to ‘hang loose’ in your mouth?  What adult teeth does God want to bless you with but needs you to make room for?  Who in your life can serve as a teeth puller outer for you?

New Year’s Resolutions???

New Year's Resolution

It’s been over two months since my last blog and I’ve only had one person keep me accountable for writing (thanks friend, you know who you are).  Are there any other Princess Warrior blog readers out there?  I can see stats indicating that my blog is viewed by many people but I don’t know who you are….say hi….post a comment….let me know you’re out there.  And…keep me accountable – my goal is to write a blog post every 2 weeks….call me, email, text, comment, etc. if you notice I haven’t – don’t let me be a slacker.

Speaking of goals and slacking New Years was just a few days ago.  And what does everyone talk about this time of year???  Yup…New Year’s Resolutions.   Did you make any?  If so, I’d love to hear what they are – comment to let us know.  I’ve never been big into resolutions.  So often they aren’t kept and many aren’t founded on anything that will last.  I’ve also always found it weird that we wait until a new year to make a new goal for our lives as if wanting to change now isn’t an option.  Well….I’ll just live in this unhealthy habit for a little while longer (as if it hasn’t been unhealthy long enough already).

Although I’m not a New Year’s Resolutions kind of Princess, I do have some goals for this new year, but honestly they aren’t just for this year they are ongoing…lifestyle  changes.   I don’t want to make a goal for 2014 because then what happens when 2015 comes along?  Do I move on to something else and leave my 2014 goals in the dust?!?  My goals are the following: be healthier with my eating, love more intentionally, blog on a consistent basis, and spend more time listening to God instead of just talking to Him or ‘doing’ spiritual things (like reading my Bible, journaling, etc).

The other week I was thinking about my desire and need to start eating healthier.  I’m not overweight but I don’t often choose very healthy food options.  I also have some health issues which eating healthier would benefit greatly.   I was talking to my good friend (the one who kept me accountable with blogging) about the need to eat healthier but the struggle to actually do so.  As we were chatting she mentioned how this is an area in our lives where the devil has a strong hold on us in the area of self-fulfillment.

When I read that I thought ‘UGH’ and felt like someone who had punched me in the stomach.  As I read it God gave me a parallel and it was UGLY!  There are many people (maybe even someone reading this blog) who struggle with self-gratification (porn, masturbation, affairs, etc) which is typically in the category of ‘sexual sin’.  I try not to judge them but I also struggle to relate with their battle at all since I haven’t been tempted to dabble in any of that stuff.  BUT…my lack of discipline in what I eat is exactly the same battle – just a different ‘fix’ or drug of choice.  In the past I’ve heard myself say “But it tasted so good” or “Oh you should have had some”.  And I’ve also heard myself say things like “It tasted good BUT…now I feel awful” or “I shouldn’t have eaten it, it wasn’t worth it” or “It’s going to be harder to get rid of it than it was to eat it.”

Isn’t that so similar to what those who struggle with self-gratification may say: “But it looked so good” or “It felt good at the time”.  And then they also probably say things like: “I feel awful now” or “The damage is done and will be so much harder to recover from than it was to engage in it” or “It wasn’t worth it”.

That parallel hit home for me.  I know that I need to keep this at the front of my mind as I change my lifestyle into one that includes eating healthy.  It will require a fight, discipline, accountability, and the strength of Christ but it’s possible and it’s for the best of me and those around me.  I must also keep this parallel in the front of my mind because it’s just as harmful to me physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually as those who struggle with sexual self-gratification….and I must not allow myself to blow it off as a lesser struggle.

It’s January 3rd and so far this year I’ve done well with eating healthy.  But it’s only been a few days and it will be a battle.  I’ve made it a point that this is not a New Year’s Resolution but it will be a lifestyle change.

What area of your life do you need to make a lifestyle change?  What unhealthy habit have you been down playing but instead you need to apply it to the parallel that God gave me?  What are you going to do about it in order to put the unhealthy habit to rest once and for all?